Wednesday, July 14, 2010

A Little Freaked Out

I'M TURNING 30, AND I'M FREAKING OUT!!! I have my good days and I have my bad days. I'm really trying not to think about it, but each day it gets closer and closer. (I mean really...I live with my brother, I can't pass chemistry, I'm still working on my FREAKING bachelors, (and yes, I have heard the joke many times about how I've been in school so long I should have my P - H - D!!!!!!) I'm not married and live in Utah which makes me an Old Maid, I work in the dirt - soon back to part time in the fall, my car is all broken, and I just feel like I can never catch a break! AND, yesterday I made a huge batch of salsa that turned out like baby poop! That was a mouth full of depression! Wink, Wink! As you can tell today is a "bad day.")

A few weeks ago, on one of my "good days," I had this idea to jump out of plane the day before I turned the big 3 OH! Really ring in this momentous age turning day. However, last week, because of few recent events, a few things have changed. As I was getting ready to make the date to jump out of a plane I had to get my car estimated, due to the DEER INCIDENT, after getting my estimate and realizing that my car was a tiny bit more important I still was staying strong on jumping. About an hour after I got my car estimated I broke a tooth on ONE little freaking Hot Tamale. "Seriously, that's IT, I've had it with life..." then I spit out the tooth fragments? I'm being a little overdramatic...just a tad. That tooth was the final straw! I looked to the sky and said, "FINE, I guess I won't be jumping - my tooth and car are a lot more important!!!" I looked to the sky because I felt that it was God telling me not to jump because my parachute possibly wasn't going to open...YOU NEVER KNOW!
So, since I'm not jumping I have decided to drive to the Manti Temple, do a live endowment, reflect on my last 29 years, and TRY to figure out the next 30 years. The Lord knows I have some major figuring out to do! Yes, I realize that Plan B could cause a car accident on my drive to and from, but since I'm going to the temple I hope that I will have a little bit of protection. Again, YOU NEVER KNOW. Maybe I was only suppose to be here on earth for 29 years...let me say it one more time cause it's not annoying...YOU NEVER KNOW!

As for the "defying gravity" I have decided that I will just go buy a really good expensive bra!!!

11 comments:

Sproatmeal said...

Ha! Yeah, get a nice blue bra, and make sure to wear it under a white shirt. That'll really show your youth!

I think it's awesome that you've decided to go to the temple for your birthday, and Manti is definitely my favorite. I love that temple. So, I hope you have a nice visit to it and that you figure out your life a bit.

30 must be when the first mid-life crisis hits because I've been going through major changes, too. So, embrace your age. Live it up, and LOVE being in your thirties! Heck, at least you're not 40!

Lucashell said...

This is the 2nd year I have been 30 I skipped being 29 told everyone I was 30 that year... just think the 30s are the new 20s so your 30s will be awesome I am excited for my 30s...

Logan and Sydney said...

Thirty, flirty, and fabulous:)

Anisa said...

I feel for you Libby... I'm 35 and soon to be living back with my parents... we could have a good cry together sometime.

If I could remember any chemistry I could tutor you on the weekends:)

You have a whole lot of fun years ahead of you!!! You get to do a lot of fun traveling (totally jealous of that!)

As for "defying gravity"... at least you haven't nursed 3 kids:)

Oh, and I have to get a crown and a root canal... $750 worth of dental work.... seriously, I'm right there with you!!!

Cutie Cakes by MinDee said...

i KNOW! i felt the same way when i turned 30. it was NOT a fun day. but now, i don't think of numbers or ages anymore. i'll just always be in my 20's in my mind. enjoy your day and manti! eat cheesecake.

Lisa said...

I'm with the person that said that the 30's are the new 20's. They are! Like I have told you before, 30 doesn't feel any different than 29! It can only get better from here! My turn to sulk, I still want to go to Manti with you. I can't believe you made plans without me. So when do I get to celebrate with you? And don't say we aren't going to because we are!!!!

The York's said...

Oh Libby, I have no advice. Age is just a number. And just think at least you'll finish your bachelors lots of people don't. And like Anisa said try nursing you definitely need a good bra after that even if you do have fakers!!!!

Erin said...

Uh, aren't you whatever age you tell people you are? I have them guess, and they always low-ball it. Then I just smile and say 'thank you.' You aren't lying, but you admit nothing! :)

Camaree Staheli said...

Libby, Libby, Libby - I have complete faith in you. You will be fine at 30, you will pass chemistry, you will never eat hot tamales again...LIFE IS GREAT!

Just keep enjoying life!!!

Jessie said...

See Libby, it won't be that bad to be 30. Besides you've done more in 30 years than many people get to do in their lifetime. So live it up and enjoy every minute of it. Think of it this way you have many more years to travel with your annoying little sis ;)
As for defying gravity, I say if you can afford a bra that supports buy it. I love a bra that can support the twins.

Dustin & Angie Drake said...

Happy Birthday, Libby! (And you forgot to mention living in Cedar in your list of life's misfortunes...)